Life’s Rich Pageant

April 6th, 2006

So walking to work today.  Stressed and fearing the day ahead.  Work is bad lately.  And the walk is dreadful.  I imagine myself walking to the execution squad each day.  The tedious waiting for response of other people.  Drives me nuts.  Especially as the responses rarely come.

The day is nice though.  The sun is out.  The temperature is comfortable.  I’m able to wear my nice leather jacket as there is no chance of rain.  A nice spring day.

I exit the building and pull out the iPod.  Need to add a little background music for the walk in. 

What to listen to?  That’s a problem with the iPod – so many choices.  I scroll through the list and settle on REM.  Decide to old school.  Click the play button and turn out onto the street.

About half way to work.  A familiar – but sometimes forgotten about – guitar riff starts.  And the mood begins to lift.

There’s a problem, feathers iron
Bargain buildings, weights and pullies
Feathers hit the ground before the weight can leave the air
Buy the sky
and sell the sky
and tell the sky
and tell the sky

Probably one of my favorite REM songs.  I look up and see the Chrystler building ahead.  Against the bright blue sky.  A brilliant-white cloud.  All puffy.  Straddles the spire.  A bright reflection of the sun comes off the glass hotel at 8th Avenue.  I start to sing.  Not really.  But pretend I am.  Singing with Michael. 

I raise my gaze higher.  Almost straight up.  And stare at the beautiful sky above me.

Don’t fall on me
Well I could keep it above
But then it wouldn’t be sky anymore
So if I send it to you you’ve got to promise to keep it whole
Buy the sky and
sell the sky and
lift your arms up to the sky
And ask the sky
and ask the sky

And finally it happens.  I no longer worry about what’s about to happen.  How could I?  With such a beautiful day around me.  I don’t even care that I probably look like a fucking idiot.  Walking down 43rd street with my iPod and sunglasses cutting out the outside world.  Singing with Michael.  If only for a moment.

so a man walks into a bar…

February 24th, 2006

ok – so that was me.  the bar was the Pourhouse in Bushwick.  the realator tried to sell the neighborhood as Williamsburg – or East Williamsburg – but that’s bullshit.  third stop on the L and walk north.  not billyburg.  kristin and i were in the neighborhood to look at a new development.  i had time to kill so i figured i’d check out the local drinking establishments – a definite neighborhood category for us to consider.  no drinking establishment – major deduction on the neighborhood.

i’ve never been to East Williamsburg/Bushwick before.  i get off the train and walk around a bit.  find two bars near the apartment we are going to look at – the first is the blue lady lounge, which got great user reviews on citysearch and freewilliamsburg.com but really looked generic and “new”.  the second was closer to the apartment and looked like a dump.  really my kind of place.

so i walk up to the door and before i even open it everyone at the bar turns to look at me.  it’s a little nerve-wracking but i open the door anyway.  and the stares continue.  i’ve never been in this bar before.  i’m someone new.  new is not always good.  i close the door and most people look away – except for the guy nearest the door.  who tells me to make sure that the door is completely shut.  the cold gets to his old bones.  really – he’s only in his fifties and if he was cold he should have been sitting by the space heater, but i figured it not best to bring this up.  i smile.  say – sure, and give the door a good shove.  he turns back to the bar.

the place really is not much more on the inside as the outside.  it’s a dump.  it’s run down.  the floor boards are worn through.  it’s dark.  an old telephone booth – like a 50’s-London style – is in the back corner.  a few empty tables are shared with a few broken chairs.  but there’s no unusual smell that goes with this type of place – so things aren’t completely bad.

the only open seat at the bar is at the far end – by the space heater.  i settle in and the bar-tender – a young guy, you’d think a place like this would have a crusty old-sort who looks at you out of the corner of his eye – comes over.  he’s nice.  we exchange hellos – i order my beer and notice they have a ‘free hotdogs’ bin behind the counter.  i think of rudy’s and look away.  the bartender comes back with my beer and tells me it’s happy hour.  the beer is only $3.50.  brooklyn lager.  happy hour until nine.  things are looking up.  he returns to his dinner and i take a look around the place.

really – it’s not that bad.  sure – it’s a dump.  but really, it’s the perfect place that jared and i were always searching for.  the taps are right on.  the beer is cheap.  and there’s a pinball machine.  no women – and i doubt there’d be any coming in the door, but that’s ok because we are married now.  so maybe this is our retirement home.

i make my way over to the pinball machine.  sitting near the space heater is getting to me and the machine is open.  which isn’t surprising as the only person in the place who’s elbows are not on the bar is sitting at the ms. pacman game.  and i’m pretty sure he’s stoned so the flashing lights of the pinball machine might be too much.

the machine is a Soprano’s theme – and it’s right on.  the action is near perfect.  the flippers work.  and the board seems level.  this place is getting better and better.  maybe jared and i should retire here.  games are only 50 cents and you get 5 plays for $3.  no match though – which i always take to be a cheat.

i play three games – usual fashion, great first game/sucky second/average third – something about when you play a machine the first time.  maybe you’re just not thinking about it. 

i finish the beer and have to leave to meet kristin.  i leave the empty on the bar – no one notices.  i walk to the door.  no one notices.  i leave – no one notices. 

really kinda my type of place.